A day or two ago I had
sweet thoughts of you: pure and innocent thoughts of a deep and profound love
that filled with me with such gratifying delight and excitement that I spent
time retracing the events that brought us together. I remembered that we hardly
knew each other and without heed or prior anticipation love filled the empty
spaces between us and where there once was nothing suddenly it was filled to
capacity.
We were young and innocent
then and although our love was strong it was still in its infancy, but time and
grace were extremely benevolent and allowed our love to grow and mature as we
grew and matured. Images of you in the innocent spring of your life appear in
my minds eye and like a slide show I’m able to page through the different
images and stages of your life with me and with love…..I indulge myself and
tend to pause at the images of you where you smile and laugh and display great
spontaneous zest and vigor for life and our love…… this warmed my heart and
filled the vacuum that complacent contentment created. Having had the
opportunity to luxuriate in such magnificence of life and love I could not help
myself but to immediately search my mind for novel ideas and ways to enhance
our relationship, and to recapture the beauty and splendor that was us and
love….also to ensure that we do not fall victim to the false securities and the
at ease complacent comforts that so many a marriage experience. Allow me to
elaborate on the false securities and deceptive comforts that unobtrusively
find their way into an unguarded marriage;
Often, eventual husbands
and wives enter into the sanctity of marriage on the premise of love, which is
perhaps the only basis or foundation for marriage, hoping that love in its
entirety would sustain them.
Love would undeniably sustain any relationship.
Although love being so powerful in its
completeness it is also fragile and vulnerable, for it cannot live if it does
not receive the necessary nourishment and sustenance to ensure it’s continued
existence. Love thrives on the positive encouragement it obtains from its
custodians and in return ensures that its keepers who constantly feed it
receive its promised bounty in profusion. I sincerely believe that our love can
grow stronger with each passing moment if we are vigilant and guard against
complacency within our realm of love….if we slumber and sleep our love will
become irritable and resentful, arrogant and rude, unkind and impatient and
eventually it will wither and die a lonely death and it will no longer be
called Love.
I intended to write to you
each day about my love for you:
I wanted to start by saying
I love you deeply and I love you with renewed and invigorating passion at the
start of each new day….
I wanted to let you know
that you fuel my fire and you control its flames with love’s reassuring embrace…..
but your kind touch do not allow it to be extinguished.
I wanted to let you know
that my innermost thoughts are about you and me and an eternity together…
I wanted to write to you
each day about me thus to ensure that you would be able to read me and
comprehend all there is to know about me and my love for you….
I frantically needed to
tell how a felt at that moment……
The overwhelming emotions
resembled champagne sealed in its bottle….with millions of slowly fermented
bubbles at its bottom anxiously waiting
to be released from its captive content………my emotions like these excited tiny
bubbles desired immediate release…..it wanted to rush to the top and overflow….
A day or two ago I wanted
you to drink me….and drink of me…..to be intoxicated by my love…
A day or two ago I wanted
to drink of you and of your love…… to remain in a state of insobriety caused by
the drink of your cup of love.
A day or two ago my cup
overflowed and yet today I feel that insobriety does not last an eternity…..
But a thing of beauty and
purity is subjected to temptation……and like molten steel have to endure the
fury of a fiery furnace before it is forged into solid steel…… so to shall our
love be tested and forged from liquid to solid……. and because of our human
frailty we fall victim to the temptation of slumber and contentment…… for we
are not strong enough to resist its comforts that last only a season.
It is easier to wrong and
appease the self and its appetites and extremely difficult to do right and
pursue the “us” and gain all that is beautiful and heavenly…..simply because we
choose the self and neglect that which is heavenly……Love, oh, Love… is heavenly.
I wanted to suggest that
you write to me about our Love….a day or two ago I wanted to reintroduce you to
me……..writing to you about the beauty of our love was me…..I needed you and me to rediscover us…and fan the spark
that turned our love into a bonfire.
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